Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Everyoneelseisalwaysright.

My roomate, who is a genius even in her young years, has a theory about regret. It is that regret should not exist, because at every point that you make a choice, it is the right choice at that time. Even if it is wrong in the long run, it is right at the time. That makes a whole lot of sense to me, but I still feel like every decision I have made and am making is totally wrong.

I had come to a point where I realized that other people- even the ones who really try and help you- don't always know everything, or know what is best for you. So I thought I had to make choices that were right for me, but it turns out I still don't know everything either. In fact these days I feel like a complete moron. I don't know what the right thing is to do or think or want or say anymore! Its like I have no compass. I used to have one, I'm just not sure what the hell happened to it.

And the worst part, is that things just keep getting more complicated. It seems like they always do.